Saturday, January 27, 2007
1/27/2007 11:21:00 PM Y
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♥ You'll never know the real me.
=2h3n=
I like to start everyday afresh, anew. Cos each day is special and precious. So precious that a spoilt yesterday cannot take it away.
I was on my way to church today and some nasty kids made some not-so-nice comments about moi. Boo. I was upset and hurt of course. On one hand, i was cursing in my heart "stupid kids", on the other hand, i was telling god to teach me to forgive em and bless em. How irony. Forgiving is indeed not an easy task. Not even for a nice person like me. =D It took me 2 hours to forgive them. I wasnt really boiling inside but i was very hurt.
In this life, there will be hurt. People who are dear to u can hurt u. People whom you never know can hurt u. Being hurt is not a good feeling. It makes us upset. It makes us cry. It makes us so vulnerable. Sometimes i wonder how god's creation can be so insensitive. That includes me. I think being hurt is such a nasty feeling. I cant imagine how much hurt god has to bear. I must have hurt him at times too. =(
So much about hurt. This feeling is not for eternal. We will get over this phase when we forgive wholeheartedly. The scar will still be there. But i hope this scar will not be a scar of unhappiness. Sometimes gathering these many scars, you can see how much u hv gone tru and survived. I guess that is what god really meant for us to learn.
Anyway, i am not upset le. But neither do i want to be reminded of what the kids said. So dun ask me wor. =)
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This semester's workload is very heavy! So many things to do. On top of schoolwork, will be serving nursery twice a month and volunteering at NUH every tues. And meeting friends.
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Exclusive versus Inclusive.
Sometimes even in the company of friends, I still feel excluded. I am a sensitive person. I am glad god makes me sensitive. I can note out people who are feeling not so comfortable. I can relate. I can try to understand. I can try to do something about it.
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Heex. Too tired to go on! Had so many random thoughts. Shall leave it hanging as it is. Haha.
HAPPY SUNDAY!
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