Wednesday, January 31, 2007
1/31/2007 12:11:00 AM Y
Post title :
♥ You'll never know the real me.
=2h3n=
2006 was very still for me. I am really excited to step into 2007 becos i know it will be different. I prayed that i will get closer to god. First of all, i wanna be close to my spirit man. I prayed for renewal of a steadfast spirit. One that will be sensitive. One that is alive.
Then god places me to work with children - Nursery and NUH children ward. Initially, i simply just want to serve in god's house so i serve in nursery. I never expect myself to handle kids but i took on the role as a core teacher becos it sounds fun to work with children. Heex. Like rou'en said, when we serve in god's house, we will grow in him. God really rewards me. I can see and feel myself growing already in just 3 weeks. I am becoming more sensitive to my holy spirit.
I think god's idea to place me with kids is to renew my spirit man. Children have very sensitive spirits. Super super sensitive. During my 2nd week in N2, a kid cried suddenly and went on crying for quite a while. With all my human wisdom, i thought of ways to coax him. When we (all children and helpers) finally settled down for worship, i prayed over all the children and from then till the end of the session, none of the kids cried at all. Children can feel things that we, adults may not feel. I want my spirit man to be that sensitive.
Today in NUH, (i think i sound ridiculous but,) i feel like an angel. Surprisingly, the kids love me. I approached them and they approached me. I feel very welcomed. This particular girl called seline caught my eye. I went up to her bed and cheerfully greeted her. She saw me coming and she stretched her hands to want to hug me. She shouted her name to me when i asked her for her name. Then i realised she is actually intellectually disabled. The other 2 volunteers joined me and soon we were playing monopoly with her entire family. Everyone was crowding around her but i felt there were distance. I sat beside her and she clinged on to me throughout the game. She gave me occasional hugs and mumbled some words that everyone seem to ignore. While everyone was concentrating on the game, my attention was all on her. She is imperfect but yet perfect. I just feel that she is highly favoured by god. It wasn't the feeling of pity. It was really the feeling of love. Simple and pure love for that little one.
During the game, she suddenly cried and left everyone stunned becos it was too sudden. Then her mummy and i tried to coax her. I just pat her and asked jesus to calm her down. I didnt even say it out verbally. It was in my heart and she just stopped crying. Isn't it amazing? NUH is very different from nursery. These children are not christians and they probably havent hear about jesus yet. But she feels god. His peace. His comfort. I feel like an angel. God's angel. It's god's reward.
I feel him. I sense him. It just feels great. I just feel so blessed. So blessed over and over again.
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