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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

5/31/2006 12:07:00 AM Y

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Happy 21st Bday von!!! the lovely pinky princess party.. haha!!

Everyone was super shagged after the chalet.. haha! but i've really enjoyed myself.. i'm sure everyone did too.. so many things to do.. bbq, fondue, mahjong, card games, xbox, swimming, talking, crapping, screaming from playing xbox.. lolzx.. i heard that the guard came over our chalet cos we were too noisy screaming.. oops! and i've made 2 new friends hoho.. meiqi and kelly.. hoho..

not bad an achievement ! hah!

and now the whole clique calls me Xiao Ba.. all thanks to Da Ba! even that dingjun (my shi fu) who forgot my name called me xiao ba sia.. (-.-") hoho.. and i'm so so so happy that von's mum says i'm cute wor! hohohohohooho... floating up up liao.. oh man! i'm getting higher and higher.. lolzx

and best of all.. i'm going korea soon!! for the summer programme with my 3 uni friends hohozx.. but dont know why i'm not as excited as them.. lolzx maybe too tired from so many activities recently..

looking forward to sat!!!!! i'm gonna have tons lots of fun! *beams*

*fen*

Monday, May 29, 2006

5/29/2006 10:48:00 AM Y

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29 MAy 2006

Happy Bday to U

Happy Bday to U

Happy Bday to Zhen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Bday to U!!

Happy 21st Bday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Taken from :http://static.flickr.com/32/52666083_964ff6e4e8.jpg

Please help yourself to the lovely cakes.. hoho.. =)

Hope that u'll have the loveliest sweetest memorable bday!

Love ya! Muack!!

Sunday, May 28, 2006

5/28/2006 08:19:00 PM Y

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WEILIN's 21st! (22 MAy 2006)

the star and her bday presents from our clique =) glad that she likes the presents

when u're hungry. . . you cant maintain ur "xing xiang" for long. . .

Weilin's bday at pasir ris chalet. cutting cake ceremony haha

the star's bday cake.. chocolately-heavens

he was the mini star of the night.. haha..

haha.. this list contains the people who went for the chalet.. and i'm paired up with mr ong wor!! hahazx.. okie lah.. i changed the positions myself lolzx

Thursday, May 25, 2006

5/25/2006 01:25:00 AM Y

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guilty!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wanted to help my dad tmr at office... apparently he only needs me on friday =( what good timing sia.. always choosing some days when i'm busy... lolzx

hmmm.. feeling very bad~ but at least i have time to stay at hm and just rot.. yeah! my face pastime woohoo!

been a hectic month... busy doing bday stuff.. felt as if its my bday hoho.. so fun! and gotta do school project.. argh! felt so lousy as a leader.. apparently i think i'm no good for a leader..

*fen*

Monday, May 22, 2006

5/22/2006 12:40:00 AM Y

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=2h3n=

I wanna thank god for all my Friends.

I love u guys!

5/22/2006 12:11:00 AM Y

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♥ You'll never know the real me.

=2h3n=

Happy 21st Birthday to WEI LIN!!!!

I wanna dedicated my bestest wishes to this dear friend of mine.

Having know u since our secondary sch days, i think u hv matured a lot. Ur temper has improved and over the yrs, our frdship has grown too! I wanna thank u for being a realli supportive and wonderful frd. U realli helped me alot (and still is helping. haha) when i entered nus. Introduced me to ur lovely frds and taught me many things along the way. I guess we know more abt each other too.

Remember u always for ur unselfishness (the time u walked tru miles with me juz to get my mummy's gift), remember u always for thoughtfulness (the times u check out exams details for me and the many little things u hv done) and remember u always for ur diligence. I really appreciate u for who u r.

Thank Q girl! *Hugs* Happy, joyous, blessed 21st. God bless ya. =)

Sunday, May 21, 2006

5/21/2006 12:46:00 AM Y

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=2h3n=

Who Am I
by Casting Crowns
album: Casting Crowns (2003)

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

***** *****

Who's this Jesus that people talk about Him? says:
zhen, even if ppl dun open up to u, just continue to be what God wants u to be ya

Who's this Jesus that people talk about Him? says:
continue to treat ppl with sincereity and in love

Who's this Jesus that people talk about Him? says:
i am sure they can see tt in you

Who's this Jesus that people talk about Him? says:
and even if they dun, its ok. coz whatever u are doing to ppl, u are honouring God

Who's this Jesus that people talk about Him? says:
and i am sure it makes Him smile

Who's this Jesus that people talk about Him? says:
and tt matters most of all

***** *****

Was chatting with June C. and she sent me this song. I realli appreciate ur understanding. It juz means so much for somebody to understand.

I noe my dearerst frds care for me. I feel gd when fen n von came up and said they will lend me a listening ear whenever i need. WL saying things will be fine. Bestie asking me to press on. Jas saying she loves me.

God too.

I will feel better. I will get better.

I am a simple Princess.

Saturday, May 20, 2006

5/20/2006 01:27:00 PM Y

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busy busy busy week! =)

met up with sf,zhen,shuang,june, ling for dinner at PS thai express to celebrate ling's belated bday. hehe.. it has been a long long time since we'll met up in a group man.. hopefully there'll be more of such gatherings soon! and more people joining in hoho

played pool with the guys yesterday.. hmm.. very fun! hahazx.. and challenging too.. at least for me lah.. it's like a game of maths n physics.. dunnoe what angles to hit lah.. etc etc. worst still.. my fingers got hit on the pool table when i was playing.. now got one blue black there.. super diaoz..

and we're almost done with the collagen thingy! yeah.. spent the whole afternoon during it and we all emptied our pockets for all the stuff.. we're all poor kids now! yeah.. =) at least i cant go out to play more often loh.. save money for hk trip lolzx kidding manzx!

*fen*

Friday, May 19, 2006

5/19/2006 08:44:00 PM Y

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=2hen=

Busy busy working.
Morning 8plus till 8plus at night.
I prefer work to doing nothing. =)
Given my busy schedule (which will get busier in days to come), i think i will nt b able to make it for cell until at least end of June. But i m not really bothered by it.
Like Jas, i dun realli like socialising esp when it becomes some sort like "obligations".
I like making friends but somehow relationships is based on "teachings" and "counselling" (when u need it) than friends as in realli friends. U noe wat i mean? Nvrm. In short, most of d time, i feel it is a one way communication.

5/19/2006 08:39:00 PM Y

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=2h3n=

Going ard un-noticed.
Most of the time.
Not that i crave attention.
I juz realised it during msn with Bestie dis afternoon.
I was telling her that there's many godly ppl placed ard her.
Who are closed to her.
She said i oso hv.
Ya. But nvr close. (Erm.. except June C. =) )
So i guess i always go ard un-noticed.

5/19/2006 12:55:00 AM Y

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i dont know how to help you guys. but wanna let ur know that i'll be always be there! =)

*fen*

5/19/2006 12:40:00 AM Y

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♥ You'll never know the real me.

busy. busy. busy.. so busy.. now that its the hols i'm getting myself more busy than during the semester..

nerve-wrecking! so many bdays this mth. so many presents to be bought. so many brain cells to be killed. in fact, i do enjoy getting presents for my friends. however, too much of it really drains out energy and money too. haizx.. i wonder how am i going to spend the next few mths of my hols without money in the pocket.. sobzx.. not blaming those whose bdays are coming soon just that i'm broke physically, mentally lolzx

of course, bdays are fun, great! almost everyone i know is celebrating 21st bdays.. hahazx.. i wonder how am i going to celebrate mine. and that is if i have one. lolzx i guess i might be too tired of bdays and spend mine quietly hehe.

so fast everybody's turning 21. so fast time passes by. come to think of it, i really do miss secondary school days alot. alot. alot. of the ppl. the environment. the teachers. the cca. the everything. i met so many amazing friends there and more so even after we've graduated from school. the happiness, sadness, crazyness we've shared, i'll still rem those bits n pieces of it.

how nice if things didnt change.
i dont like changes.

crap.. it didnt sound coherent of me to say that. i'm acting chim. hah!

*fen*

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

5/17/2006 11:55:00 PM Y

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♥ You'll never know the real me.

=2h3n=

My papa bought me crabs. =)
Me. For me. =) =) =)

*** ***

I don't rem much hw my family was when i was v young.
But i think i m happier as a kid.
My smile is so sweet.
My mama always say alot of uncles n aunties love me when i was young.
Now leh?

I am turning 21 v soon. But i feel like returning to my younger days.

5/17/2006 11:10:00 PM Y

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=2h3n=

If i hv a rich papa, mayb i will be enjoying my holidays overseas like some of my frds.
If i hv a rich papa, mayb i will never hv to worry abt financial issues.
If i hv a rich papa, mayb i will hv more time for leisure and passion.
If i hv a rich papa, mayb i will taste the feel of being pampered.
If i hv a rich papa, mayb i will feel less tired abt life.
If i hv a rich papa, mayb i will nvr hv to be at the order of others.
If i hv a rich papa, mayb i can buy anything i like.
If i hv a rich papa. mayb i will nvr hv to use second-hand phones, wear second-hand clothes, use second-hand textbks.
If i hv a rich papa, mayb i can be what i want to be.

I am numbed to working. Don't exactly hate working. But when my bank account hits bottom and there is no way i can ask for money, i wish i hv a rich papa.

Imagine working every holidays.
Imagine the idea of struggling with bills.
It is tiring CAN.
Blessed u if ur parents are paying for all ur bills and fees.
Okay. Stop whining.
Why m i so not pleased with myself? =(
I am.

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

5/16/2006 11:23:00 PM Y

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=2h3n=

I am starting work tml. Starting to feel the pressure and stress. Lord, pls grant me wisdom and peace. Jiayou.

5/16/2006 03:52:00 PM Y

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5/16/2006 02:45:00 PM Y

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5/16/2006 03:36:00 AM Y

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=2h3n=

Bestie said if i have so much time, i shld speak to god. I think she is right. I havent been speaking much to him. So i laid down on bed and started telling him the things that hv been happening. Until the tears rolled down and i got out of bed and sat in front of the computer.

I had so much to say that i decided i shld quiet down and listen to what god has to say. I couldn't hear anything. Silence. My mind started pondering. I am so lost and disconnected. Suddenly, i realised that i owned nothing except god. But even god, is not all mine alone. There is nothing i can call my own.

I told god i hate the way i m feeling as much as i hate the pretend life i have been living. Is this me typing all these? Everyone probably thinks it is such trival matter. Grow up and stop all these whining. Ya. I feel so insecured. Y? Becos i live in a materialistic world. This is reality. Even christians are realistic because we live in a materialistic planet earth. So what if god says he loves me despite me being ugly and plain? What others think bothers me. You are one big hypocrite if u said looks and brains do not matter.

I would feel of worth if i can contribute to the world. I will feel less insecured. I will feel there is a purpose for living. There are so many obligations attached. As long as i m living, i feel suffocated.
Worst, i cannot even help people. I am no gd with words. I am slow in thinking. I am half deaf. I am still figuring what i can do best. I am still wondering how i get into a uni.

Lord, i hv issues with u. Shan said i can be a support to bestie. I am sorry i cant. I tried but i really cant. There are ppl ard who care for u and can b supports to u. I am glad god places em in your life. Treasure em as they cross ur way. Don''t let your own mind take control and blinds the things u c.

5/16/2006 12:43:00 AM Y

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=2h3n=

I don't know.

I cannot offer solutions.
I cannot be with you when you need someone.
I cannot do anything.

I am not like people with godly advices.
I am not like others who know exactly how to counsel.
I am just a nobody.

I can only cry with you silently.

What can tears do? I wonder what my brain truly contains.
God will do something, won't he?
Miracles do exist.
Joy will still come.
We have a merciful god, don't we?
He is ya-wen.
Isn't he?

Saturday, May 13, 2006

5/13/2006 02:20:00 PM Y

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=2h3n=

I hv decided that slping away all day is not the best way to spend one's holidays. Erm.. That's wat i had been doing for the past wk. I dun intend to waste the rest of my holidays away.

Past week.

Monday - Dinner @ Sakae with sf,xf n ys.
Tuesday - Shopping with eunice (i bought a mango skirt!) and cell dinner in marina sq
Wednesday - Gift shopping with sy,sh,kl n yx. Dinner + shopping with sharon (met ivan so he joined us)
Thursday - Job agency interview. Wl accompanied me. Then we walked fr imm to je and fr je to imm, estimated a total of 10km before i bought my mum's present.
Friday - Sectional outing @ West Coast Park

Saturday - Jes's bday celebration @ her sis's and thenwill bunk over @ sf's place. =)
Sunday - Service in d morning n then steamboat @ home.

Nxt wk i will start afresh! Might be working already. It is not easy to get a job so i shall nt be picky anymore. =) But there r things that i wanted to do tru d holidays!

(1) Read the books i bought
(2) Revamp my room
(3) Develop photos and make my college asap
(4) Go to the zoo
(5) Have fun with my frds (sec. poly, uni and church)
(6) Work
(7) Visit my cousin
(8) Read my bible diligently.
(9) Learn a new skill. Like cooking?
(10) Help out with housewor. Less lazy.

I pray i will do wat i say!

Thursday, May 11, 2006

5/11/2006 10:54:00 PM Y

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=2h3n=

I dun like it when ppl come up and chat with u juz to find out more abt another person. Talking abt sincerity. Talking abt being friends.

Hello! I am not a middleman can.

5/11/2006 09:44:00 PM Y

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=2h3n=

Since i happily finished my last paper, i hv been playing all day long. Heex. Okay. Now is the period i wish i get some jobs. I pray that god, pls pls let me hv a job soon. I need $$$ and i need to work my brain. Otherwise my brain will collect lotsa dust.

5/11/2006 09:39:00 PM Y

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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

5/10/2006 09:30:00 PM Y

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ever since exams started, i havent gotten a good nite's rest.. now exams are over.. i dont see it coming anything soon too.. sad..

had a post-exams celebrations cum rong and yf's belated bday celebrations last fri..

meisin's 21st bday party @ Guilin's restuarant.. hmm.. the food's there quite nice haha!

and a midnight's movie MI 3! ooohh.. tom cruise so suave!! heezx...

there are so many may babies and all are 21st this year.. broke man! looking forward to more food and talks!! hahazx

*fen*

5/10/2006 09:01:00 PM Y

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yeah!!! exams are finally over~~ (though it ended like last fri) hahazx

still.. i'm happy! hoho.. can slack for the next 3 mths.. wahaha!
enjoy man everybody!!!
happy hols!

*fen*

Sunday, May 07, 2006

5/07/2006 10:42:00 PM Y

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=2h3n=

Exams are officially over. Came back from my EA class chalet.

After my last paper on fri afternoon, i headed to pasir ris for my 1st chalet of the month. By tht time i reached, they had already BBQed and eaten. Well, there was still a bit left for me. First nite, we played games. The polar bear game. It was more fun when i played it on the second nite. The first nite i still dun realli noe hw to play n i thought it was realli boring. We played many funny childhood games and a song guessing game. We played tru'out the nite n considering tt i had onli a few hrs slp bcos of my paper, i was realli tired. Most of us took a short slp ard 5 plus am, while some made their way home to vote cos it was voting day!

The remaining of us slpt until 10 plus, cleaned up and then chatted until 2pm before we decided to go escape theme park. I enjoyed the rides. We tried practically everything until it started to rain while we were Q-ing for go-kart. So we ran to BK to grab some bite. N we saw campus superstars Kim and Zhiyang. Hehe. Gossip. Wonder if they r a couple. Of cos, they were with their frds. Then we headed back to our chalet n wait for the voters to retun. Watched tv, played mahjong and card games before we went downtown for dinner ard 9pm. We went photo-shooting at downtown east but too bad we did nt take any the nite before when more ppl were ard. Went back to chalet n nua-ed, chit chat n watched the election results. It was v exciting. After tv, we played games all the way until morning. Finally left ard 6am. Reached hm ard 8am. Intended to attend june's church which is juz beside my home since i missed YAS the nite before. But i thought since it was still quite early for the svc, i took a little nap. I failed to wake up!!! Woke up at 230pm n missed svc. I m so sorri!

I went to sharon's home in the afternoon. Had a gd but short time. I feel realli terrible. How can i still stay in the chalet while my frd needs someone to talk to? I did. I hv no idea wat was gg on in my mind. But ya. Nvrm.

Alrite. That's my wkend.

Friday, May 05, 2006

5/05/2006 01:03:00 PM Y

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=2h3n=

It's now 1.5 hrs to my last paper. Yeah!

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

5/02/2006 03:04:00 PM Y

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♥ You'll never know the real me.

=2h3n=

The time now is 1503hrs. 2 hrs to my sociology of tourism paper. *Yawn* The thing abt 5pm papers is that u run out of patience quite easily. Haiz. Instead of revising, i m blogging. Haha.

Alrighty, gtg prepare for sch. Jiayou!