Friday, November 25, 2005
11/25/2005 11:05:00 AM Y
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♥ You'll never know the real me.
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One more paper and i will be free for at least a mth bfore the release of the results. Haha.. So far so gd. By right, i m supposed to study REALLI hard for exams bcos it's my first semester and i m not supposed to screw up anything. But i m so used to NP's kind of studying style tt i cannot discipline myself to "push" myself to study like realli hard. That is kind of sad. Nxt sem i will do better. Anyway, for the first time ever, i m gg to fail my econs. Can u believe it? I cant believe i m failing econs but i realli m. I did not do well for the mid term test n i practically stared at my exam script not knowing wat to write plus there wasn't enough time. Goner. So i swear i m nt gg to take another econs module in NUS, ever. Praying hard that i will get a pass, tt is a D. I will be happy. A little testimony to share.
The usual me, after econs paper, i felt realli disgusted wif myself. Morever there was another paper the next day. I was demoralised. Yet, god reminded me to move on and not dwell on the paper any longer. I continue to hope in him and that i will do better nxt semester. There will be a breaktru. I m so concerned about how ppl will think of me like if i fail a module in my first semester, perhaps i will drop out of sch pretty soon. God says he will not be ashamed of me and i hv to learnt to cope wif my own responsibility of not putting 100% effort into revision. Therefore, i continue to rejoice and humble myself so that i can grow even more. Grades cannot pull me down. There must be a reason god placed me in NUS arts and social science. I m seeking and exploring further wat he has installed for me (Pretty certain not econs). Surprisingly, i wrote pretty gd argumentative essays even though i din take GP (1st 3mths i did). I m so proud tt i even did better den those jc students but all glory to god. Indeed. Actualli i hv been thinking of majoring in social work but nt many ppl noes tt. I did not tell many ppl bcos i m nt certain if tt is wat god wans me to do n i m "too quiet" to be a social worker. I desire to work in hospitals, schools or homes as counsellor. Perhaps a little to ambition considering my character? I m praying tru dis during my dec holidays.
I was brought tru memory lanes these days fr kindergarden all d way to poly. When i was in kindergarden, i was so super quiet tt i hv never spoken a word in class unless d teacher asked me to. Primary sch was slightly better. I opened up more to certain grp of ppl. N i liked to "counsel" ppl u noe. Haha.. I din i nvr told anyone. Bcos i listen more than i talk, whenever i noticed somebody i class was down, i will go over n asked him/her wat's wrong n shared my sticker book wif em. I remembered there was dis gd malay guy frd who was so grateful to me tt he even remembered me when we splitted to different classes after pri3. N god blessed me wif a grp of realli nice popular girls when i was in pri6. Even though i hardly talk, they invited me to join their grp n hanged out wif em. I thought i was so lucky but nw i knew god's planned all these. In sec sch, i opened up more and hv a grp of close buddies tt i hang out wif even till today. Poly was amazing too. I used to complain bout d hard kind of double life i had to lead. Now i seem to noe y all these happened. I was given jobs where i had to interact wif ppl all d time n tru dis, god is trying to open my character futher. In poly, i became more outspoken in classes and presentations made me confident. The skills i picked up were so valuable. I could go on for ages but i m placing god's plans for me together n figuring wat he wans me to do. Does god wants me to be a social worker? If tt is d capacity i can serve in, i will go for it. Meanwhile, i hv to pray. Heex.
On d other hand, i m pretty upset at times tt i cant seem to communicate wif ppl well. As in wif ppl i m nt close wif. I m such a boring person. I noe nothing bout entertainment news, world news, shopping, books, sports, watever. Sometimes i find it realli hard to strike conversations wif others even though i wan to. How how? N when i m talking to someone n a 3rd party comes in, instantly, u will c me being squeezed out of d conversation. Den i will be pretty upset. I tried to continue in d conversation but it always seems tt i m interrupting n speaking something out of d world so i rather withdraw or automatically nobody will be talking to me anymore. But when i m wif my realli close frds, like fen, sf, eunice, jas, i do not feel left out in conversations or neglected. My buddies. =) But i do wish everyone treats me d same as they treat me though. Nt somebody quiet or un-noticable. I m nt feeling depressed over dis. Juz tt i wan to be more accepted n sociable. Help me if u hv any tips. heex.
Monday, November 07, 2005
11/07/2005 10:59:00 PM Y
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♥ You'll never know the real me.
=2h3n=
12 Nov 2005 (Saturday) is Zhen's Big Day. Zhen is honouring God in Water Baptism and declaring herself as the child of God. She decided not to be ashamed of the Same Gospel, Same Christ who grant her the ticket to Salvation. Will be baptised at Trinity Christian Center along Adam Road (Opp Adam Hawker) during the Young Adult Service at 730pm.
Venue: Trinity Christian Center @ Adam
Exact Location: Level 4 Auditorium
Time: 730pm
Date: 12 Nov 2005
Friends friends!! Do come and witness my water baptism. Come and hear my testimony. Come and hear who this god is.
from: mini cooper's official website