Sunday, October 23, 2005
10/23/2005 10:35:00 PM Y
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♥ You'll never know the real me.
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To my younger brother,
As much as i hate to see u in ur present state, i still care for u. Despite all the bad times, god reminded of our good old days. I recalled the days when we were younger, how we used to look tru old photo albums and discussed hw cute u r. U r d baby of our family and the one wif the prettiest face. I remembered hw u chose to stick wif me when gor found u so irritating. I remembered we were in M'sia once at auntie's then me and ah-mei decided to play at d playgrd n u joined us bcos gor n ah boy din wanna play wif u. Without the bigger boys wif us, there was dis grp of boys who tried to bully us. The 3 of us ran back to auntie's but u were lagging bhind and soon stopped by the guys. I ran back n pulled u out of d crowd. Do u realise hw much a baby u r to me even till now? I recalled the days i would brg u along when i went out wif my frds in secondary sch. There were times when we were shopping n i did not bear to spend money for some pretty things, u wld buy em for me. When u promoted to sec1, we even arranged to meet in jurong east for a good lunch of kfc that i promised u. Those were the days when u were shorter den me. Those were d days when u were not so bad.
I can't rem when thngs started to change so much. I spent less time wif u as i got older. Eventually when i went to poly, i had to work n i had no time for u at all. There were times when u asked me to play play station wif u n i had to tell u i had no time bcos i need to study for my exams. Muz be my fault. Nobody at home seems to hv time for the baby of the family who has all attention since young. Perhaps tt's y u began to find comfort elsewhere. But y din u even voice out or at least tell me? I dun blame u. Our family doesnt hv communication anyway.
How much i loathe to see u scolding vulgarities n behaving like an ah-beng. My frds who saw u wif ur frds would come up to me in dismay, telling me to be a better sister. It hurts more than i hate. Despite all, i trust u so much. Even when mummy says i m so stupid to believe u but i did. I believed u when u told me u found a job n u were working. I was even worried if my little bro can handle such long working hrs. But y did u betray my trust? Y did u return hm d nxt morning wif purple hair n shock d hell out of us? Y did u even lie tt u were working? That was yet one of your many lies n ur silly sis believed u.
U r realli hurting d family. I noe our family aint perfect. We hv many problems. U hate mummy's nagging. U muz understand that mummy is not educated n those gentle kind of speaker. But she cares for u. U can see hw hard she works to support d family rite? Sometimes i juz dun understand y u hv to do dis. If u study our family carefully, i shld b d one gg astray. I m nt losing hope in u. I m waiting for d day u repent n i will always welcome u as my younger bro. I place all my hopes in god who is gg to change u.
from: mini cooper's official website