Friday, July 22, 2005
7/22/2005 12:32:00 AM Y
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♥ You'll never know the real me.
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During d E-Event meeting, juz suddenly, somehw, i juz reflect about myself. Myself. I ask myself who i m. Who i m to others, who i m to myself. I m a girl once lost but was found. I found my identity in god. Cos i believe he noes me n he set dis set of character in me.
I used to worried n perhaps m still worrying hw to communicate wif ppl cos i m such an introvert. Faith sets me apart. I believe i will still b able to meet ppl. God made d path. I walk d journey. I hope i will b a blessing to ppl. I seek no fame n attention. Bcos of my nature, i m a quiet person. Frds, who m i to u? I learnt nt to b ashamed bcos i m an introvert. God will magnify my weaknesses into strengths n blessings to others. I learnt nt to b so self-centered. I learnt to b brave n nt ashamed of god. I learnt to walk in deep faith even at times i was stumbled upon by others bcos i chose to serve god.. Many times these tears almost tear my hrt apart but i held on.. For as long as now.. i m happi..
I felt lyk a tree swaying tremendously in the storm. D branches swayed so hard tt it broke one by one. Soon, all tt was left of d tree was it trunk. D wind got harder n harder but d trunk stood firm. D storm calmed dwn after a long while. D trunk still stood there. Bcos of d root. Dis root is d root of faith tt goes deep deep into d earth, holdin on to d tree. I desire to b tt tree.
Although outside thoughts circular in my mind, i m still focus on meeting kk. Juz tt i cant tok cos i had no voice. Todae's meeting was realli meaningful n grt. I thought of a lot things. Pastor Janice even dropped by to speak to us. We were reminded of our focus. We were encouraged. Bcos things earlier for d past wks were uncertain n some of us were realli disappointed. I guessed d stress was realli upon d leaders. Gwen especially shared wif us hw she felt n all. We did a lot of sharing. I understand my comm members more. We all had a common destiny n we r workin on it together. I c glory upon our lord's face. Not bcos of wat we had done but how we had grown. I m amazed n in awe.
Gillian, u wun b reading dis, but i wanna tell u, u r a great partner to work wif. Funni n candid. Even though at times we sint coordinating well. We r all learnin ma. I appreciate u a lot!!
Sharon darlin, thx for being there for me. I luv u. At times when i was realli dwn wif all these plannings n probs. U r always there to listen. I noe u r stressed in judglin between work n bidding n e event n family n frds n even god. But god is a all time god. U shared wif me tt he wans to speak to u but u aint gving him d opportunity. Rem u told me hw u spoke to him every morning at ur workplace? Do d same now. In small little ways even, he realli appreciate n u will b so much blessed. *HUgs*
Can i take dis opportunity to thx every member of d comm?? Haha. Can la. My blog leh. Ehem. Thx Q peeps whom i hv grown wif together since d beginning of d plannin of d event. Thx Q guys nt bcos i m holy holy muz thx ppl. I m nt a noble person la. Juz tt.. I feel tt i had grown a lot.. Frankly speaking, it wasn't easy at all for me fr d v first meeting i attended. A lot of emotins n spirtual struggles underneath my "nothing" face at each meeting. Looking at hw one another spurs encouragement upon each other. Hey, i juz feel proud to b part of d team.
from: mini cooper's official website